Ambition

The brain speaks; the hand works. I am a writer, I am proud to say. 

This talent was indulged to me five years ago. I have been writing since first year high school. At first, it was just a hobby, a past time, and a stress reliever. I do make novels, which later on, read by my classmates and friends. They convinced me to take the screening test for new staffs of our publication but I insisted not to join because at first I thought that being a staffer is a laborious task.

In the middle of the year, our school was invited in a joint seminar for journalism. It was an open-participation seminar so I decided to join. In the seminar, we are required to join in different genres and awards were given to those lucky candidates who were able to stand out among hundreds of participants coming from different secondary schools. In addition, I think fate made its way to call me. When the awardees were called, I can barely believe that I am one of those lucky persons who got into the top. I got 2^nd place in the field of Filipino feature writing and a runner-up in news writing English category.

As a consolation, the publication adviser hired me as a feature editor and that has made all the changes in my life.

From then on, I was obliged to write an extemporaneous feature every day. It will be passed to the advisers and they will judge it according to their taste. They check the style, the emotion bonded in each word and its impact. This serves as my practice sessions as a preparation for the up-coming division press conference held at dingle, Iloilo and joined by all the districts of Iloilo. And luckily again, I made it to the top 5, representing the division of Iloilo for the regional press conference.

What calls my interest when writing is the subject which calls for an internal deviation. Say for example, a point of view about the death of Corazon Aquino, the side of turned down Vice Presidential Candidate Roxas and even a novel-type story feature which is my specialty. 

Moreover, I constantly excelled in Filipino-base feature. My sub genre is news writing, preferably English. 

In 4 years of service in Green Woods, the official publication of our school, I could say that my strength is in Filipino articles rather than English. I don’t know why but I can write smoothly when it was in Filipino rather than in English. Because of those achievements, I garnered the Gloria Macapagal Arroyo award in Campus Journalism in the end of the year.

Why I chose, to apply in Lifeline? It is because by joining it, say, I could have the chance to pursue my talent as a writer, to let my feelings be heard and to make others be entertained through my writings. Finally, through this chance, I may say that I was a full-accomplice writer for I was I able not to hinder the power of a fresh mind, seized in pen.

The real of me…..

Tricky question still hunts for answers

I don’t know why

seventeen years of existence

I learnt by and by

A golden heart and a silver mind

That is what I possess

It may sound absurd

But I came to that

Oh wait! There’s another one

I’m kind but not all the time

Patience is a virtue

But there’s a limit line

I’m a great thinker; rational

I weighed a lot, a thousand of times

However it would be tough for me

Doing things which are not meant to be

As a persona, I am playful

I take things for granted yet I know the rule

Use time wisely for it not to be wasted

Enjoy every moment, but don’t be blinded

For me time is like a diamond,

Unique, precious, valuable

Time would remain running constant

Like a line should be

Just go with the flow and accept things whatever it may be

Water runs very still

Water which follows the shape of its container

Just like water, I can follow the flow

Adapting to changes, disregard the ego

Confuse, curious, thinking

I’m in that era right now

Why do I live? How could I survive?

I want to answer these Qs before I bow

Do I already know myself?

Had I talked to my self?

Whatever questions that would be,

I’ll keep myself answering it free

I love nature

People is what I desire

A admire sociable beings

I hate hypocrite ones

People may think I’m rude

My manners, my conducts

Cease these things

I know I’m a good person

I would not make this long

It’s enough, I said a lot

That’s me

Strong, courageous, but sensitive inside

I know myself better than anyone

You’ll know me more from what I said and done

Lastly, I want to leave this verse to each and everyone

Life is full of ups and downs

The trick is,

Enjoys every moments during the ups

And summon all the courage during the down

Humans As We Are

Humans emerged the land with nothing. Their minds, for me, was the so-called “tabula rasa”, unenhanced, undeveloped, unused. Through the evolution of the environment, people tried to adapt to the new system of stressors. They were able to levy strategies, techniques and proficiencies just to cope the constant change in the environment. Through the unstoppable flow of time, people learned how to boat the rivers by converting these stressors into a system of organize information which now we called life. 

Yes, life.  It is the life, which gives the living organisms the parameters from the nonliving ones. However, before we abuse the word life, let me describe to you my perception of the word LIFE.

Life itself is a continues process, a growth or decay, as long as the process continues from a certain basic start into a fruitful ending. From a simple mind into a clever one is also a life. What life could really be like may depend on how the user was able to use it. It is never necessary if how your life done but it is the matter on how you dwell with it. 

Since life is a cycle, people should also be dynamic in attending the needs of life in order to sustain the necessity of his living.

In addition, life should be the best present God Almighty endowed to us for the reason that life is a fire in every matchstick. It is once in a lifetime opportunity to have witnessed the incomparable beauty of the paradise our creator provided us. He gave us the chance to feel the pains and pleasures of life. Despite the fact that our creator gave us the right and obligation to see his creations, did we ever wonder why we are here, wandering in his nirvana?

And that, people of the world, is our rightful obligation. To sought answers for our questions, to find reasons for every dilemma and purpose for every action. Dramatically, we are obliged to have a certain belief that should provide us a backbone or path that would guide us in the life we wished we could have.

Purpose. We all have purpose in life. What is it and how should it be accomplice is the question. I, myself still could not grasp the proper words or sentence to describe my purpose in life. I could not find the answer in my own questions. And what worse is the knowledge that having no goal in life is like a stone in the middle of the mud asking himself why he’s there?

But as my young mind started to adapt into the complex college life, my vision in the path I am taking started to clear, proving me a clearer sight on how I would keep myself keep the track. On the way of developing myself physically and mentally, my emotional aspect was able to provide itself more vivid reasons for every taken action about my previous experiences. 

Thus, in sixteen years of glorious living in this paradise, I was able to articulate some points where I know my philosophy is being practice. And that philosophy is a sacred idea which I personally considered as my flashlight in the middle of the tunnel.

Throwing me question why I like this life is like asking a child why he wants to eat. It is simple. Asking me my philosophy is quite different story. The nearest answer I could stand is that I want to hold this life not because I need it personally or I love it so much but because my family need it. My family is the reason why I keep struggling in the middle of life’s labyrinth. They are the ones who give me the will to keep finding the exit from the confusing life.

My family are the most important persons in my life they are my life. Everything I do is for them, to cherish them to give them the most comfortable life I could ever give in a living spirit. I could sacrifice myself just for them for without them my life would not be as good as this. My family is my flashlight in the middle of a dark tunnel, I know the light is not so bright but it would be just enough for me to find the exit.

Back to my philosophy, I think what directs me is the will of my family. I move according to their will, I act base on what they said and I behave for what they say is right. I cannot say that is wrong but what I can say is that because of them I was able to set my own goals for myself.

After all, I only believe in just one thing.

All things have their respective reasons. Just like the apple fell from the tree, it has its own reason and I know you know it.

Before I put my signature below, I want to leave a simple message for each and everyone. 

I do not act certain things because I want to have a bountiful harvest in the future instead, I act according to what I think I should act in appropriate manner and let life bring the right consequences. 

It is the life, which gives the people troublesome, stressors and trials, however always remember....

Life is like a dark tunnel and you cannot see anything. But all of us have our own flashlights, Why not try to use your flashlight? Do you have one?

Why being a Nurse

What is your motivation in taking nursing as your course?

Whenever I hear this line, I could not grasp the most accurate passage to ascent as an answer.  I, myself, personally am in dubious why I took this course.

I still commemorate the days when I articulated that I would not take nursing as my course for the reason that people only took the necessity of the profession in order for them to conform to the demand. I was holding that principle for almost half a decade and keeping my word that I would sure end up as a certified public accountant.

Yes, nursing is not on my top priorities. I have that epitome that once you are a nurse; people incline to look at you as their servant, their nanny. Despite the reality that I want accountancy as my course, I could not bear to break the prospects of my mother. Ever since, she desired me to be a nurse in the ground that she’s working outside the country and projecting to stay there for good, she wanted me, as well as my brother and sister, to be with her. And here I am, awaken one day, wearing the college uniform for nursing.

At first, it was very unmanageable to put yourself in the situation where you know you are not suitable in. However, later on, I already adjusted myself to the place where I am in, to the specified situation where I have to dwell with different people, new faces. I already made my circle of friends to whom I realized that I was not the only one who suffered the pain of taking nursing.

Another thorn in my part is the high expectation of everyone around us. Nursing at West Visayas State University, as its name suggests, one of the respectable universities in the country and one of top-performing universities, you can really feel the pressure running to your veins. There is no place for mistakes. You should always give the best, perform the best and please everybody.

But everything changed when I heard this line.

“Nurses are angels with stethoscopes”

Simple but it really caressed my heart. Looking forward, after four years of struggle, I’ll be on the point where I will call myself angel. Is not that marvellous, I am an angel. I’ll be the guard of my patients, I’ll be their crying shoulder, I’ll be the one who will give them the most comfortable situation I could ever give and most of all, I’ll be catering their needs. In that way of perspective, my vision in life drastically changed from a simple planned event into a worthy life.

Now, whenever I encounter the question stated above, I am giving a straight answer, proud, and say, I want to be a nurse because I want to be an angel.