The Day You Said Goodbye

My mom was working since i was a kid...

I'm 3 month old when she decided to gave to me to her father which apparently my grandfather... we're seeing just once in blue moon and of course, i miss her. I was just an ordinary kid, needing the love and warmth of my mother which my grandparents can't sustain to give me.
My Dad that time was somewhere in the island. I really don't know that time what he keep on searchin', but one thing was planted on my thought, he wasn't an ideal father me, or even us...

Dala na rin ng matinding kahirapan noon, my mom was force to go abroad and leave the three of us scattering around our relatives. I was adopted by my grandparents, treated as one of their off springs. They clothed me, gave me food, shelter and they showed me what a fam'ly is.

I grew up without my parents... I know it was hard to be in that situation but i stayed calm as long as i could, be strong as long as possible. And be mysterious. I'm not letting anyone to be near in my heart "coz i don't want them to know the pain inside me and feel pity to me. I really hate it when someone says that i was in a pitiful situation. 

Sixth grade.. A very dreadful news can me to my hearings and no matter resistance i did, i can't stop the pain that put me in miserable life i have right now...

My dad went away with another woman... left my sister starving for food, craving for shelter in in the bone-skinned body... I really hate fate that time why it let that damn thing be with us..
I've been so weak for almost a week, crazy thinking why people needs to sacrifice the things they love for just nonsense things... Why did he left us,,,... my mom's reason is an acquired reasonable but the thing my dad done.. was absolutely curse to person he left behind...

But a voice made me regained my strenght. My mom called direct from Israel, crying,... she was drunk.. as we talk behind each phone, i know that she was dripping wet with tears,,. i know that she couldn't bear the pain..

She left us, her whole family, to give us a promising life she dreamed for us but instead my rotten dad threw the oppurtunity just to with that bitch for a temporary joy.. temptation.

With that voice awakened me, i promised to my self. Be strong, be brave to face the challenges i may face in the future. But behind that glorious spirit behind me, I'm planning to revenge.

I, myself, someday. i would show to all of them that even we are in a broken state, a family without mom and dad, a family living in a house but not a home, would be successful. I want that to show to all especially to my selfish father who left us that even without him, i can protect my family and replace his abandoned responsibility.

I graduated In elementary with flying colors and called to be the first honor. I take the stage, with my chin up, saying something.

THIS WILL BE THE FIRST STEP I KNOW TO ATTAIN WHAT IS MY GOAL.

Angel and Devil

It is really interesting topic to talk about.

When someone talks about good and evil, it only bores me and loss my concentration on the topic.

Why? Simply because good commonly refers to good things done by religious people and nothing but good. And definitely, if good refers to kindness, mysticism and languar, evil are those acts which do not deserve to be appreciated for they doesn't belong to normal acts and only people who doesn't have the proper etiquette and enough behavior in anyway have the guts to do it.

However, angels and devils really caught my attention  and believe it or not, i enjoy participating in any discussion regarding the beauty of angels and the cleverness of devils. Haven't  we notice? Devils are the ones who is more interesting to talk about even me, i am also fan of devils rather than angels.

Well, take a closer look at the picture. i can't say that they're both angel or demon but i just want to express my greatest gratitude that, both personalities in that picture have a special value to me for they resemble the battle between good and evil, between the cleverness and kindness, and being strong and weak and most of all, the fight of surrender and survival.

For the final judgement of armageddon, battle between good and evil always be anywhere anytime. Just as expected, the battle had started and until now........



STILL WASN'T ENDED

alien

It was fine thursday morning when i decided to surf net, trying to descover new interesting websites. However, i wasn't sure if what can i do if i found one

I saw, www.blogger.com. i was hooked by that website 'cause it was my drean long ago to be heard. I was before fantasized to be a blogger someday. To be heard by billions of people around the globe. I want to express my self, to share my point of views of the related controvercials happening to our mother world.

I may be only a teenager, an ordinary high school student, but i know that i have the power and voice to speak out. 'Cause i know that wisdom has no limitation, no boundaries and no exceptions.

Alien. Isn't that sound horrific?
Well, i wasn't also sure if aliens really exist or other forms of life exist in other dimension of the universe. Nevertheless, i'm so sure that i,myself, is an alien, a totally freak one, in the web net.
today is my first blog, my first view, and very glad that i already oponed a door at the planet of net. I know it was the first step to be heard and to be commented 'bout my views.

Well, lets find out maybe nextime, what other matters we can talk. but for now, i have to leave, my mom was coming.

Bye everyone.