The Day You Said Goodbye

My mom was working since i was a kid...

I'm 3 month old when she decided to gave to me to her father which apparently my grandfather... we're seeing just once in blue moon and of course, i miss her. I was just an ordinary kid, needing the love and warmth of my mother which my grandparents can't sustain to give me.
My Dad that time was somewhere in the island. I really don't know that time what he keep on searchin', but one thing was planted on my thought, he wasn't an ideal father me, or even us...

Dala na rin ng matinding kahirapan noon, my mom was force to go abroad and leave the three of us scattering around our relatives. I was adopted by my grandparents, treated as one of their off springs. They clothed me, gave me food, shelter and they showed me what a fam'ly is.

I grew up without my parents... I know it was hard to be in that situation but i stayed calm as long as i could, be strong as long as possible. And be mysterious. I'm not letting anyone to be near in my heart "coz i don't want them to know the pain inside me and feel pity to me. I really hate it when someone says that i was in a pitiful situation. 

Sixth grade.. A very dreadful news can me to my hearings and no matter resistance i did, i can't stop the pain that put me in miserable life i have right now...

My dad went away with another woman... left my sister starving for food, craving for shelter in in the bone-skinned body... I really hate fate that time why it let that damn thing be with us..
I've been so weak for almost a week, crazy thinking why people needs to sacrifice the things they love for just nonsense things... Why did he left us,,,... my mom's reason is an acquired reasonable but the thing my dad done.. was absolutely curse to person he left behind...

But a voice made me regained my strenght. My mom called direct from Israel, crying,... she was drunk.. as we talk behind each phone, i know that she was dripping wet with tears,,. i know that she couldn't bear the pain..

She left us, her whole family, to give us a promising life she dreamed for us but instead my rotten dad threw the oppurtunity just to with that bitch for a temporary joy.. temptation.

With that voice awakened me, i promised to my self. Be strong, be brave to face the challenges i may face in the future. But behind that glorious spirit behind me, I'm planning to revenge.

I, myself, someday. i would show to all of them that even we are in a broken state, a family without mom and dad, a family living in a house but not a home, would be successful. I want that to show to all especially to my selfish father who left us that even without him, i can protect my family and replace his abandoned responsibility.

I graduated In elementary with flying colors and called to be the first honor. I take the stage, with my chin up, saying something.

THIS WILL BE THE FIRST STEP I KNOW TO ATTAIN WHAT IS MY GOAL.